Blog 4: La vie de Danii Grimm

Hey guys! omfg we're closing in on four days and counting til the Phoenix Warped Tour and I am just ECSTATIC. I have a few surprises for my ghoulfam in store but I'm not about to pour my heart and soul into that because it's down the road but I did want to mention it because it is VERY EXCITING omg. THAT being said, the countdown to the festival had begun nearly two months ago when the tickets arrived. We are planning on leaving for the Valley on Wednesday night, spend Thursday at the festival and sleep in the Valley that night, AND THEN go home the following morning. I plan on blogging/vlogging most if not all of our experience it all just depends on my equipment and how well everything stays charged. It IS going to be 110 degrees down there in the Valley so my family and I have taken extra precautions to stay feasibly healthy while we are there from 11 AM - 9 PM though we may leave early if we've seen all the bands that I desire to see (HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME RIGHT???). And if after all that we need a fail-safe: 

Warped Tour know's their playing in a desert and seems to have our backs. Nice to know I can also bring a small umbrella for my child to keep her safe, and that I can bring a small snack from home. The Warped Tour 101 Rules on their website have been very helpful in our preparation to bring our small child to a festival (she's 7) but she is really excited to go regardless of the heat just like her mama. Her own goals include meeting and talking to Awsten Knight of Waterparks, Andy Leo of Crown the Empire, and of course Andy Biersack of Black Veil Brides and I aim to do my best by her! GOPRO ready to point and aim for some amazing pictures! I didn't have this particular camera in February when we went to the Resurrection Tour, so this will be absolutely AMAZING quality pictures/videos and I plan on sharing it ALL through my various social medias and right here in this blog. 

Which brings me to why I've switched from Tumblr to Blogger and that is a simple answer actually. Blogger allows me more content. I don't want my rambly brain to just be halted in the middle of a thought because a site counts characters and INCLUDES picture code in that. SO, we are at home on Blogger now. All four posts. IT was a lot of work to switch it over but in the end over all QUALITY is what we want here in our experience and I feel like I get that here. So welcome! And let's get the ball sorta rolling shall we? I mean, I think I've rambled a bunch of nonsense into your heads by now. Sorry but it had to be said. On top of moving my blog over to an entirely different site and setting it up to my liking, I also finished setting up my Patreon for those who may be interested in checking that out. You can find the link Here . I appreciate all the support I can get as I am currently a full-time mom and this would help me bring better content out to you my ghoul fam! xo 

So I find that even without recipes (because I am great at putting my own together), I am increasingly better at not only cooking healthy and vegan meals, but I am SOUUPER good at making SOUP. ALL the puns intended. LOL. I'm a dork, sorry....moving forward. The soups I have been experimenting with are not only hearty but they are savory and healthy. My family has all around enjoyed the food I have made for them thus far with a cheat here and there of pizza but usually it is vegan friendly--just maybe not the healthiest, and CANDY omfg candy the bane of my existence! 

But you are so sweet and sugary and beautiful and omg choooooooooooocolaaaate!!!!!!!

Not a whole lot happened on our front here. The bugs are invading because outside creatures are for some reason in a war against my private space and want me to go slowly mad. I guess Ill just spray a circle of bug spray around my body and sit Indian style in the middle of it so that they wont touch me or my body because a lot of bugs leave me feeling super NOT OKAY. Their little legs freak me the fuck out, I don't care WHAT they are they make me feel like things are walking on me even if they haven't touched me and I've just spotted them. I'm THAT bad. But I have my reasons. And fears are irrational but real things. Sorry. I don't bother bugs out in their natural habitat (nature) but when they come into my home, I get the spray and start screaming from a chair while I kill them with direct hits. Hey, I'm a gamer. Fuck you bug, GTFO. 

Other than that my daughter and I ran around for three days straight after pay day (because daddy gets paid biweekly) doing various errands. We met a really nice Hopi man named Hastings while we were traveling and paid it forward. We've got a few really exciting things coming up and I am so blessed and grateful to be able to do them, and that not a whole lot has gone wrong, so I wanted to help out. I felt karma has been real good to me lately, and I should definitely help this man. We gave him a dollar and he thanked us. He was really impressed by Nayeli's vocabulary and complimented my home schooling skills when I told him she was a home schooled child. He just adored her. Which mostly happens when I go out without my husband. A LOT of native men are very very nice to me, it's nice. I like feeling like part of a community sometimes, even if I'm awkward and weird and not even accepted by most of my own community LOL! and well my experience with native women has been hit or miss just like everyone else (just my husbands mom and sisters hate me but ah well--whaddaya gonna do?) 

Enough! No negativity or drama here! We live simply and love everyone here. SO that being said, keep an eye out for next weeks blog ESPECIALLY after Warped Tour because omfg yaass I will have photos and video footage of it but I don't know what will be salvageable until I see it!! I'm so excited! For those of you who are curious, I'm 31 this year! This is my seventh Warped festival and Mooshby's 1st/last. Usually I say I'm 25 + shipping/handling which is accurate. But I've learned to love and embrace myself no matter what age I am, and I don't normally celebrate my birthday because every year something goes wrong---BUT NOT THIS YEAR! I can't WAIT. 

Wish me luck ghouls!

–Danii Grimm  xoxo

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By the way, I recently changed my hair and made it pretty and new for Warped. I'll let yall see it soon but it's a surprise and fab! Just a little chop chop here and there, and some dye. Teehee.....xoxo

Blog #3: With Every Obstacle There is an Opportunity.

I want to begin today’s blog of course with a big HAPPY FATHERS DAY to my husband @raithmourn because today is about all the #daddies and well, he’s #1 daddy in my book. Without him I wouldn’t have my daughter, something that I never thought that I would do mind you. But yeah, it’s funny how life does things like that to you right? I started out twelve states away from where I am at, and this is where I had to come in order to spring the seed of life that made my daughter. It took a lot of struggle, pain, sweat, and tears to get here--but in the end it was worth every fucking second. And that is truly saying something. Maybe one day, Ill share the clusterfuck that was my childhood--but not today! Today, is a good day. We woke up, there is air in all of our lungs because we’re here--and we’re reading. So let’s do this. HAPPY FATHERS day to all the daddies, and to my hunny. I love you my Raggedy Andy.

OMFG THIS THING IS FROM WALMART YALL....

With that being said.....I’m going to now take a brief moment to fangirl SUPER HARD. THERE are TWELVE, that’s right--12 days til I am in front of @blackveilbrides​ at the #vanswarpedtour and I could not be more excited! I hear the weather in the valley is terribly humid, that there have been dust storms and oh HALLO MONSOON SEASON. So yeah, we’re used to that--we lived there for seven years. I’m pretty sure we can handle one day of ALL THE FUCKING MUSICS. I know I mentioned Black Veil Brides but I love them the most. Sorry. I am also looking forward to Simple Plan which I saw earlier this year (and MET OMFG HAI PIERRE!). But I’m also looking forward to seeing some bands Ive never seen live before like falling in reverse, waterparks, trashboat, etc....the list literally could go on and fucking on because the line up is so incredibly amazing this year. Oh, and now that I’ve hardcore fangirled for yall I figure why not toss in a HAPPY INTERNATIONAL BLACK VEIL BRIDES DAY to you all. Never knew that was a thing til today, but HEY can’t say I DONT approve, because well....let’s face it....I want every day to be international black veil brides day--why not? 

Alright let’s get to the bulk of this post shall we? For a week straight I had the looming anxiety of a mammogram and an appointment because a nurse found a lump in my breasts. LOOOOOONG story short? I am cancer free and those lumps she found were just liquid filled cysts I was told to “keep an eye on”. Hold up. Rewind. Back the fuck up. Keep an eye on cycts that are super deep in my boob that I literally have to fish for? Something that literally took you 34 minutes to locate on a fucking ultrasound machine? HOW?! Am I supposed to get a home ultrasound machine? Give myself regular checkups? *smdh* that being said (and NO I will not be getting a fucking ultrasound machine), everything seems fine. 

Let’s get into the longer story now. 

I woke up that morning with anxiety but still managed to get ready and go to my appointment. By get ready and go I do not mean I did my hair and make up etc because I could not do those things they specifically told me not to wear makeup or any product. And by go, I cannot simply just walk out into my driveway and get into my car to go. I journeyed on the Flagstaff FUTS through the woods and billowing minerals, to a place two miles away by the hospital. Most of the trek was up hill in 20 mph winds mind you, that was real fun! especially when I reached the top and the billowing mineral mountain (courtesy of the city of flagstaff workers) started spilling into our faces! Anyway, I digress, I walked the rest of the way--and almost got hit by a courteous flagstaff patron who told me to basically fuck myself because he didn’t warn me he was coming loud enough (because the wind was going 20mph) so he thought it was sufficient enough to just mow me and my family down. When we finally got there we waited a bit in the waiting area and I was escorted into the back. Usually I bring my husband with me as my anxiety rock, but they wouldn’t allow him in the back because women were “under dressed.” but this was a radiology clinic so....there were more than just women that came. And it also sparked the question deep inside of, what do men who have breast cancer do? Do they not get to have a mammogram in the back here simply because they have a penis? Strange. I was escorted to an area to change, where I changed quickly. Then brought back to the machine, which was scary and giant. It loomed over my 5′1′’ self and the mashy glass plate stared me in the eye like--”Im comin for yo girlz an imma fuck shit up, you have no idea.” So the nurse explained everything to me, marked my breast with a permanent marker which made me just--like, really? You gotta put perma marker on my tit? Then we mashed my titties for like 15 minutes and four pictures. IT was awful. MASH is an understatement guys, for real. It’s super unpleasant. And the amount of times she asked me to hold my breath when I had just awkwardly let go of all my air? Were just....more than I could bare because well, we had to to take more fucking pictures and I had to stay connected to a machine that literally had me clasped by the tit. When I was finished in there, I was led back to the place I was changed in and told I was going to go to a ultrasound afterward to make sure everything was honky dory and to hold up on changing so I waited. Another lady came to collect me and brought me to the ultra sound which wasn’t anything I hadn’t done before, so I was finally relaxed. She did poke at my tits for like forty minutes, then when she was done taking pictures she got the doctor. By getting the doctor I mean she had to “find” him. The radiology clinic, lost the fucking doctor. Okay twenty more minutes of waiting means I bit off ALL my nails by now. AND “Hi I’m Dr Gallows.” Okay. So he pokes at my breasts for another twentyfive minutes to tell me that I have cysts and to keep an eye on them. Mind you he had me lying down, and sitting up, and was looking all around at them. It was very strange. I was happy when it was all over, but still had to walk the two miles back home. That was fine though, most of that was down hill, and the mineral mountain had stopped blowing as much because a small rain passed through and the wind had died down a bit. 

All in all it was a successful mission, one that proved to me that I am going to stick around a lot longer than expected and that’s great! More time with my daughter is a gold star in my book! And that’s what this day was. I hate doctors, I hate hospitals and tests, and I was filled with anxiety--but it is done and now I don’t have to worry about it til something else happens, cos well--c’est la vie.

I have been keeping us on a healthy balanced diet all week. No slip ups--even our ice cream has been coconut milk and ANY/ALL of the meat we consumed was grassfed/organic meat. I didn’t bother posting pictures to my social medias of any repeats that I made or anything containing meat. But if yall want the meaty dishes--I’ll include them just drop a line on any of the social networks and Ill squeeze it in.

Nothing really more to report on our front here, other than I have plans later this week to head to Sally’s Beauty Supply for some more hairdye so yall can keep an eye out for that. And I have been planning my warped tour outfit for two fucking weeks so.....look out for pictures of that. Not only that, but in the official warped rules it doesn’t say anywhere that I can’t bring my gopro camera. SO we will film until that thing dies (and the external batteries we have which is two LOL!) so keep an eye out for that as well! Still workin’ on getting the patreon rolling, but Ill be sure to let everyone know when that is up as well. Thank you for following along ghouls! Join me next Sunday (a bit earlier) for some more glimpses into my life through the Diary of Danii_Grimm.

–Danii Grimm  xoxo

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Blog #2: “Cause even if you sacrifice beliefs to get through/And even if you take the side of lies over truth.../Everyday, the world will take what you give in to.../So hold on to every breath of life in a world of sacrifice...” Lyrics (BlackVeilBrides-World of Sacrifice)

Hello again Interwebs and lurking ghouls it’s me, Danii Grimm again. I’m going to be dropping these every week, on Sunday’s. If you want to follow along my memories/stories you’re welcome to, but this is mostly for me. And a little for my daughter in the future should she have any questions. It is marvelous therapy though, writing your thoughts down into words and really pondering them over and over. The mind is an interesting thing. 

For those of you who followed along in last week’s blog I mentioned that we’ve gone #flexitarian #flexitarien (However you want to spell it) what it comes down to is we’ve completely switched our mostly meat ridden diet/lifestyle to that of a vegan/vegetarian’s . No that does not mean we’ve cut meat out entirely but we’ve cut down significantly--and because we’re not interested in gaining any extra HORMONES and/or ANTIBIOTICS that the USDA just allows us to have--we’re only eating farm fresh fish and organic grass fed meat. That being said, we’ve also cut dairy out of our diet because my husband is lactose intolerant. So why bother eating something that will fuck up his insides? That is why we’ve switched our diet so it would be defeating the purpose if you ask me. Anyway, week one of our diet/lifestyle change has been AMAZING. Only slip up was a bag of Doritos and some Rock candy (oh candy! i love you candy!) but other than that we’ve been doing so SO well. Even my seven year old is remarkably acceptable of this new diet and change, but the bottom line is she always liked veggies and fruits anyways, so this isn’t THAT much of a GIANT leap for her. Food is food. I LOVE that she isn’t picky like I was when I was her age. Which must’ve been trying for my grandmother/mother. 

Honestly I’ve been lurking on pins for recipes and crafting my own, I’ve been reading as many articles I can on diet and health, and I’ve been reading the science of our bodies to remind myself (as I have been through classes for these things) but everyone needs a reminder once in a while. So, going in armed with knowledge is the best way! I feel like a food warrior and my body is the battle ground! FUCK YOU BAD FLORA LEAVE! YOU’RE NOT WELCOME HERE! Here you go body. Eat. NOURISH. THRIVE. 

All kidding aside (half kidding) I have never felt so ENERGETIC before, I have been getting more FULL nights of sleep, I wake up HUNGRY instead of SICK feeling, and on top of that some MAJOR differences noticed already that are a little more private and personal (but if you’re smart Im sure you can figure it out.) 

That brings me to my doctor’s appointment this week--which isn’t very good news but it isn’t very bad news, not yet anyway. I went for a regular everyday check up and found out I’m being tested for a few different very serious things--including Lupus. It’s anxiety inducing, but I’m trying not to dwell on the negativity of that and am just pushing to love life and live everyday the way I have been for the passed 30 years. One day at a time, with no fear of what lies ahead, because only time can tell the future. That being said, I am also going to a radiologist on Thursday because my doctor found masses in each of my breasts, which is also a little intimidating, but like I said--breathe, and one step at time--right? 

So, until I am told something about the results or my mammogram comes back telling me I have to worry--I wont. In the meantime, guys--the Warped Tour 2018 SHOW in my area is getting closer and closer, and I could not be MORE thrilled. If you don’t already have your ticket to the LAST coast-to-coast PHOENIX Warped Tour (or any of them for that matter wtf) GET ON IT!!!! I mean, COME ON GUYS have you seen the line up IT’S EPIC? HAVE YOU SEEN IT? Here...Lemme Screen cap that for you. 

Yeah that’s about six caps and if you aren’t impressed by now  I don’t know how you aren’t. That is an ALL STAR line up and god damn guys what a day!!! My date is 6/28 with show times listed from 11am-9pm and WHAT THE FUCK I can’t wait. Black Veil Brides is obviously a HUGE reason I am going but with other name drops like Simple Plan, Falling In Reverse, Waterparks, Trashboat, Crown The Empire, and so many many fucking more how could I say no?! Then my husband agreed to take me and my daughter. Not only will I enjoy it but SO will she. AND we get to see our ALL TIME FAVORITES a second time this year! WIN! #happybirthdaytome right?! Fuck it! I don’t even care that it’s going to be hot as balls and I’m likely going to be physically nauseated the entire day. I’m going to that, and I’m taking as much video and pictures as I possibly can with my handy dandy gopro! so watch out for that when we get back from it! Just so so much win. 

I’m also looking to get my daughter involved in Andy Black’s classes which are reasonably priced but we are paying to stay in the valley a couple nights too. So we shall have to see about that. For those of you who don’t know Mooshby6 want’s to be a rocker herself, she wants to tear up not one but a few different instruments but she is learning guitar right now. Very cool. She named her guitar Andy because he’s her hero musically. Which is another reason why I wanted her involved in this small session with him--so we will see. 

If you haven’t heard of it I suggest checking it out. Andy’s a kind, talented, and wonderful human being and I actually don’t mind my daughter looking up to this man. Mistakes and all--come on guys he’s only fucking human. At least he learns, that means he’s smart. Cos let’s face it, there are human beings out there who will never learn (my mother included). 

Alright guys I think I ranted and rambled enough about everything currently on my mind. If you follow me on my social medias you’ll get more updates about what we are currently doing and where we are going. Like the other day we had #familydatenight where we went to a #localbusiness @newjerseypizzacompany which was FANTASTIC. 

Not only did they offer a vegan option, AND gluten free crust (which btw comes with butter and only comes in 12″ for those of you who wanted to know) but it came in a variety of other specialties and they also serve things like #local root-beer and pasta dishes! I gotta say, I haven’t tasted the East Coast in so many years (8 to be exact) that it was just a breath of fresh air! I literally cannot wait to go back (to the restaurant not the East Coast fyi....#sorrynotsorry). The pie was filling, it was decently sized, the vegetables were FRESH and we of course didn’t have any cheese (vegan ftw!) but we demolished the entire pizza! SANS grease, SAVORY, and just PACKED with vegetables!!!!  AND at 20$ (with a 5$ coupon for signing up to their newsletter) IT WAS WORTH EVERY CENT. Ever in Flagstaff? CHECK them out on Cedar Ave. 

And with that I will close this out with my personal links here at the bottom, be sure to keep in contact and watch for big things! And I’ll see yall next Sunday! 

--Danii Grimm  xoxo

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Keep an eye out for my future videos on Youtube, and soon I’ll be launching a Patreon to boost the quality of my videos and streams. <3 Love you ghouls!